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Hey dA, how ya doin?
It's obviously been another while since I last wrote a journal. Adult life is really busy..
Like who made me an adult and thought that would be a good idea??
But I'm doing well in that department I think, I mean my only proof is my accomplishments
So yeah, I'm in my fourth year of university now, like holy fuck. About 6 more months and I'm a certified teacher (??!!)
I'm running a LGBTQ+ support and social group in my region and we just started our 3rd year. I got a job (only one finally, had 2-3 over the summer) at a really awesome store called Bonkers (!!)
I'm somewhat in a better mental state? Probably at the best I've been all year, it's been a really hard year.
A year ago today my ex and I broke up, it was the most beautiful and pure love in the world. Its was such a good relationship. What happened after we broke up hurt me the most, and I've definitely fucked up (and maybe around a lil) this past year to try and ... idek, try and feel wanted and that I want something again?
But it only made me realize that I can't find the exact same thing again, and that I deserve more than what I tried settling for cause ppl just get hurt that way.
In terms of mental health though I realized that I dissociate a lot, oh well. But I mean I think I got myself to that point (more than usual) by just disconnecting from everyone and everything around so I won't get hurt. Which makes sense. But I think I'm coming back again.
I know it'll be okay. It's been pretty okay. Keeping busy as always, teaching grade 6 this year too which is pretty cool. My mentor teacher is literally the best and that takes off so much stress. Last year's mentor teacher *shudders*.
I haven't been writing that much anymore, even in the slam poetry department I've been 'slacking' a bit, which is okay. Sometimes I just don't want to talk or don't have anything to talk about and that's totally okay.
I want to get more fit though, but I think all this new school year crazy workload has had me eating a little bit more xD WHOOPS
Anyhow, I hope you all are doing well and that you are supported and loved and if you're not then I support you and love you and I will cuddle all of you now.
xo
It's obviously been another while since I last wrote a journal. Adult life is really busy..
Like who made me an adult and thought that would be a good idea??
But I'm doing well in that department I think, I mean my only proof is my accomplishments
So yeah, I'm in my fourth year of university now, like holy fuck. About 6 more months and I'm a certified teacher (??!!)
I'm running a LGBTQ+ support and social group in my region and we just started our 3rd year. I got a job (only one finally, had 2-3 over the summer) at a really awesome store called Bonkers (!!)
I'm somewhat in a better mental state? Probably at the best I've been all year, it's been a really hard year.
A year ago today my ex and I broke up, it was the most beautiful and pure love in the world. Its was such a good relationship. What happened after we broke up hurt me the most, and I've definitely fucked up (and maybe around a lil) this past year to try and ... idek, try and feel wanted and that I want something again?
But it only made me realize that I can't find the exact same thing again, and that I deserve more than what I tried settling for cause ppl just get hurt that way.
In terms of mental health though I realized that I dissociate a lot, oh well. But I mean I think I got myself to that point (more than usual) by just disconnecting from everyone and everything around so I won't get hurt. Which makes sense. But I think I'm coming back again.
I know it'll be okay. It's been pretty okay. Keeping busy as always, teaching grade 6 this year too which is pretty cool. My mentor teacher is literally the best and that takes off so much stress. Last year's mentor teacher *shudders*.
I haven't been writing that much anymore, even in the slam poetry department I've been 'slacking' a bit, which is okay. Sometimes I just don't want to talk or don't have anything to talk about and that's totally okay.
I want to get more fit though, but I think all this new school year crazy workload has had me eating a little bit more xD WHOOPS
Anyhow, I hope you all are doing well and that you are supported and loved and if you're not then I support you and love you and I will cuddle all of you now.
xo
When You Can't Sleep
Hello world,
I've just gone through all of my journals since the beginning of time and it is pretty much 3am now.
I just couldn't sleep, and my beautiful girlfriend is asleep and has to wake up in two hours so I don't want to wake her.
It's so interesting reading through all my really hyper mistyped nonsense. I didn't really say much about my mental health situation in these journals, but I know I poured it all into my poetry.
This is probably the newest thing I've written in ages, I've been way too busy living. Which is important.
Poetry and writing in general has always been there for me as an outlet and a way for me to cope with wha
I Swear I'm Alive
Hey lol
I am almost DAILY on dA! I usually just check my messages and fav stuff tho...
I just haven't been writing much?
You know when you just do want to talk?
But I'm taking a lot of photos and such, although I post to my instagram @etchedstreets if you want to check that out
I've been drawing too, a lot more actually
Maybe I'll upload those sometime, I think they're really cool, I even turned them into temporary tats :P
Anyways, I'm going to go clean my room before my mom chops my head off :P
Bye~! xo
Haven't done one of these in forever
so hey
im old
like in comparison to when i joined dA and like last wrote a journal haha
Life has been... intense. Went through love and heartbreak. Not fun but also totally worth it.
Kind of on a path of recovery right now, maybe went a little too far off the deep end so.. yeah
But its getting better now which is good :)
People are weird, ya i know, nothing new lol
New year is coming, not that big of a deal to me really but at the same time I hope it'll be a good year, ya know?
2nd semester of 3rd year in university, holy shit- damn, time passes by
I've been doing a hella lot of slam poetry/spoken word in the last 2 years, really got
If You* See This
*Hopefully you know who you are
Hello beautiful :)
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