Come Full Circle

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Hey dA, how ya doin?
It's obviously been another while since I last wrote a journal. Adult life is really busy..
Like who made me an adult and thought that would be a good idea??
But I'm doing well in that department I think, I mean my only proof is my accomplishments
So yeah, I'm in my fourth year of university now, like holy fuck. About 6 more months and I'm a certified teacher (??!!)
I'm running a LGBTQ+ support and social group in my region and we just started our 3rd year. I got a job (only one finally, had 2-3 over the summer) at a really awesome store called Bonkers (!!)
I'm somewhat in a better mental state? Probably at the best I've been all year, it's been a really hard year.
A year ago today my ex and I broke up, it was the most beautiful and pure love in the world. Its was such a good relationship. What happened after we broke up hurt me the most, and I've definitely fucked up (and maybe around a lil) this past year to try and ... idek, try and feel wanted and that I want something again?
But it only made me realize that I can't find the exact same thing again, and that I deserve more than what I tried settling for cause ppl just get hurt that way. 
In terms of mental health though I realized that I dissociate a lot, oh well. But I mean I think I got myself to that point (more than usual) by just disconnecting from everyone and everything around so I won't get hurt. Which makes sense. But I think I'm coming back again.
I know it'll be okay. It's been pretty okay. Keeping busy as always, teaching grade 6 this year too which is pretty cool. My mentor teacher is literally the best and that takes off so much stress. Last year's mentor teacher *shudders*.
I haven't been writing that much anymore, even in the slam poetry department I've been 'slacking' a bit, which is okay. Sometimes I just don't want to talk or don't have anything to talk about and that's totally okay. 
I want to get more fit though, but I think all this new school year crazy workload has had me eating a little bit more xD WHOOPS
Anyhow, I hope you all are doing well and that you are supported and loved and if you're not then I support you and love you and I will cuddle all of you now.
xo
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